Monday, September 30, 2013 @ 9/30/2013 08:11:00 PM
Hahaha back after a few months! If there are still followers please let me know:D
Blogger is still the best thing I turn to after so long.
Exam results for year 2 was ok. Did up to my own expectations hahhaha. Not that my expectations super high but all passed! Yayye!
Had a great working experience at great eastern. Great location, nice people but not v fantastic workload lolol. Thankfully there's ziyi to lunch with me :)
So that was my life. School and work. I wonder how others are doing now. :/
Anyway, had this weird but heart warming conversation with a friend recently about relationships. We ended up bitching about ourselves but ya hahhaha. I did learn. Learnt not to take things for granted. I could act like everyone owes me when I am at home but I guess I can't do that outside. Not everyone is going to stay in your life and serve u for no one owes you. I have to remember this by heart.
I just want you to know the reason behind why we acted this way, our temper, the way we asked for things to be done in our way and everything else is because we need assurance. At least for me. The paranoid nature keeps me thinking, it often end up with self pitying. We victimized ourselves too much and it often end up with one getting depressed. All I've came to realise is that no one will spend forever coaxing you. Know your (my) limits.
Its been a long time and maybe, time to do some reflection. I thank you all for those who have been supporting me and telling me that things will work out. For those who did not support, I don't blame u at all because I understand your point. But a chance is all I am asking for. One chance.
Sunday, June 09, 2013 @ 6/09/2013 02:33:00 PM
Jay chou concert 2013
It was really like a dream come true!! :D I am so loving mr jay <3 nbsp="" p="">
Anyway, OPUS Jay concert was fantastic! (though I feel 2010 was better, still this is good.) heh. I was able to see Jay soooooo clearly!! Happy like cartoon already. Right. It probably really feels like a dream come true. Anyway, its over already. Now let the photos speak:
Note: Unclear cause it was taken by phone and the lighting effects are really horrible. :) Slowly enjoy Mr Jay playing piano, playing guitar and everything more!
And lastly, honestly, all these probably won't happen if its not for him :) :D ^^v
Thursday, March 14, 2013 @ 3/14/2013 02:36:00 PM
Prelims are over and exams are round the corner. After a few more weeks I'll be free. :D Looking forward to June and tadaaaaa~ Mr Jay concert.
Before that, lets go through this few months of.. mugging period first. I think I need a cure for exam anxiety. This round of prelims reminded me of how stressed up I would be in the exam hall. The feeling that your mind goes blank, every thing you write seems to be wrong and suddenly 1/6 of the time passed. End up I only managed to finish half the paper.
Exams are not only to test our knowledge but also to test how well we can handle stress.
Really recently I feel like a cry baby, its not as if unhappy things happened. Just that I couldn't control my tears. I don't wanna cry, I tried so hard to hold back but in the end, the impact just got stronger. Just like in an argument, the more I want to hold back the things I want to say, when I finally said it out the impact got stronger than I expected.
Detesting myself for such a unreasonable side. Sometimes I don't know if silence is a good thing. Being silence helps avoid saying hurtful things, things that I couldn't believed I've said out. Past few nights I haven't been sleeping well, kept reflecting on things I've done wrong, things I shouldn't have said. In the end, I still came to the conclusion that I should just shut up in the midst of an argument. Its not the first time.
So I hope you could understand why I chose to be silent.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013 @ 1/30/2013 12:02:00 AM
The problem with me, I know. I never know how to express myself..
Friday, January 18, 2013 @ 1/18/2013 12:17:00 AM
Just hoping that one day I would tell myself:
Promises are meant to be kept, not broken. Probably I need somebody, maybe myself to prove that to me.
Sunday, December 02, 2012 @ 12/02/2012 05:05:00 PM
Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street
Faster than the wind
Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind
Once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn
So bright just before they lose it all
Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red
Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong
-Taylor swift (Red)
Saturday, December 01, 2012 @ 12/01/2012 01:46:00 AM
Who has the ability to answer the question in my heart?
Somebody got to have the ability to do it.
Friday, November 30, 2012 @ 11/30/2012 10:33:00 PM
Things I do when I get bored at home. Dig out all the old stuffs I have in my cupboard. Today I realised I have so many jay chou stuffs at home. :P proud of that. Shall share my collection with you all!
All the albums I have! Short of a few though :( Wasted! Shall I complete my collection?
Jay Chou MV DVD!! <3 p="p">
Jay Chou DVD! Most of the movies he acted in. omgomg! LOVE!
Jay Chou photobooks!!
These are my Jay Chou collectibles! Cool shit ! haha! But I lost my 2010 concert light stick T.T
HAHA! Now I hope everyone will update me when they saw new Jay Chou things around. hehehhe. Here's looking forward to his new album in 2012!
@ 11/30/2012 09:48:00 PM
Westlife - The Rose
Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you it's only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live
And the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes a rose
Monday, November 26, 2012 @ 11/26/2012 01:34:00 AM
Long long time since I've updated this blog.
Life has been, extremely boring. Surprised? Had been revising, studying, walking around trying to explore some different parts of Singapore.
Elizabeth is back, So is Melvin (heh heh). But I've yet to see him because that bird says she is not going to let me meet him T.T She say she doesn't want Melvin to become as weird as me.
School life as usual, the only odd thing is I've had a lot of night classes this month. More than usual I mean. Night classes, not as fun as I thought. One whole night wasted just like that :(
Life has been boring, 30% due to constant studying, another 70% due to the fact that I am trying to figure out life. At this stage of life, probably many people will feel the same way as me. Neither here nor there. No aim no goal, study for the sake of good grades, live for the sake of living.
I've been thinking a lot, like I always do. I've been trying so hard not to. But who knows, when lights are off or when you sit down alone, those little things pop out, irritating facts you didn't want to think of, some irritating shit you really didn't wanna give a fuck. I wonder why is life difficult, especially when what I want is really simple.
I don't know when the bomb will explode. So I wait and wait, avoid and avoid.
But well, time to put down these thoughts and have a good rest.
Lets hope life treats us better. Lets hope everything will be over soon. And lets hope I have the strength to carry on.
Apart from this emo nemo rubbish,
Claire is getting married in two weeks. Aww, lucky Gerald for being able to marry the princess of our family! :) Getting excited for her!
Here's wishing her a blissful marriage!
Tuesday, October 30, 2012 @ 10/30/2012 11:15:00 PM
Little miracles are happening in life everyday. Be glad that we are able to leave the house and come back safely, appreciate that we are able to hear from our love ones everyday and be contented that we are able to sleep peacefully every night. I love the fact that I get to enjoy all these every single day. :)
For the past few days I've been through a lot of thinking about what is logically correct and what is it that I want. Truth is the things I want are the simplest things in life but how awful is it to realise that I may not have the capability to own it. It was a terrible feeling. Anyway, it's over. Once we've been through something, the next step is to become stronger. Yes, I just want to grow stronger. I do realized that I can, yes I can, walk down the streets alone.
Saturday, October 27, 2012 @ 10/27/2012 05:57:00 PM
You never understood how it feels like to be me.
@ 10/27/2012 12:57:00 AM
How do I get enough security to trust what I want to believe.
How much does it take to have a relationship that wouldn't hurt.
Saturday, October 06, 2012 @ 10/06/2012 04:34:00 PM
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Monday, September 24, 2012 @ 9/24/2012 10:47:00 PM
Love it since the first time I heard it :)
Sunday, September 23, 2012 @ 9/23/2012 10:39:00 PM
I don't wanna to prioritize. When I wanna put everything on the same level. It hurts and I don't know how to express. The feeling sucks.
@ 9/23/2012 02:06:00 PM
Happy Birthday my dear friend!
Attended Guomun's 21st Birthday with a SUPER DUPER full meal. ^^ Worth skipping class for that. heh, it feels like his wedding dinner though, rather than 21st birthday. Funny guy. hahahaha. So our once in awhile full clique hang out. :) - my comfort zone.
Our topics never change and we never seem to get sick of all the same old topics. About relationships, fantasizing about our grad trips and all the crap and un glam moments.
Always considerate, always understanding, putting in effort and taking care of me. :) More than half of our clique are 21 now! Cheers! ^^ Here's hoping to better days ahead!
Sunday, September 16, 2012 @ 9/16/2012 09:28:00 AM
Went shopping with wee wee yesterday. hahah, Love her max!! ^^ ^^
Had an ambitious dream of getting to far east but we only managed to shop up till H&M. heh, fruitful trip for me, not for her though, So she did her shopping at home. hohohoho. Love shopping with her cause she doesn't mind queuing to try clothes, she would take a whole load of clothes and she really shops. LOL I like it. Always make me find something I like.
xD
ALL READY FOR SCHOOL!
Jobless now haha, gotta find some ways to earn some income to continue my savings plan. ^^v
Lazy sunday! But granny is coming later ^^
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What a bad dream, so bad I could actually feel your fear. Oh man, I'll never wanna feel that in reality. T.T
Learn to trust, that's the key. I need to really learn how to trust.
@ 9/16/2012 08:39:00 AM
Tuesday, September 11, 2012 @ 9/11/2012 07:50:00 AM
爱究竟伤了谁 救了谁
流泪的流泪 欣慰的欣慰
爱究竟有多累 有多美
伤悲的伤悲能绝对
我承认怕黑